Why on earth am I awake?

I'VE BEEN DOING REALLY WELL RECENTLY JUST SO YOU KNOW

It's never good enough though.

typing this on my new laptop.

I spent the last two days trying to transfer the stuff on my old laptop to my new laptop.

I've given up now.(for now at least)

Tomorrow we are getting a new fridge.

Why must we suddenly have all these new things? (i have a new cellphone too)

Earlier this year i was coplaining about nothing in this house working

but i still dont know about all these new things.

I waked into the kitchen and saw the frezer open (defrosting i guess)

the icecream was all melted

I ate it anyway.

So there's this essay I'm meant to write.

Instead of writing it I think about it and cry.

I don't know why it has this effect on me.

It is so tempting to turn my back on all responsibilities and just stay in bed forever.

Dont worry im not going to do it

just think about it

a lot

I am writing this because it was good when I wrote here everyday.

I have often in my life thought that i have delusions of granduer.

Is it possible to have delusions of grandeur when you think you have delusions of grandeur?

It sucks that understanding something is true doesnt mean you believe it.

It suckes when you are interviewing someone via email and they stop responding you your emails.

How can I increase [i dont know how to word this thought]

Everyone is an asshole sometimes (except some people)

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i should sleep but i dont want to

most nights i have to force myself to go to sleep

maybe i will sleep in this bed instead of my own

that would be a bad idea

is a bad idea better than no idea at all?

i have no idea

what if i fall apart again?

what if i dont?

gosh

anyway

been reading a book

its good

its like an action book

it is an action book

exploding submarines

that type of shit

bad ass

does anyone want to go to the movies with me everyday for the reast of my life?

looks like i might be going off the sickness benefit later this year

wouldnt it be easier just to stay on it forever?

lol

welcome to my inner worksings

only some of them though

gosh

politics

no not politics

more like philosophy or something

issues?

there been a lot of something like that recently maybe or maybe not who knows?

i am rambling

i admit it

fuck

all of a sudden i dont want to post this