my heart is beating fast and heavy, my breath is short and shallow, i can hear people outside cheering

I have been missing Caro very much recently.

I went to two movies tonight. The was a gap of forty minutes between them, so I walked outside and bought a coke and some peanut m&ms. I already knew exactly which bag of m&ms I wanted but I took my time choosing the coke. I chose a 440mL can. I was cheaper than a bottle but larger than the other can options. A kind of comprimise. I probably would have been better satisfied if I'd bought a larger drink and a smaller bag of m&ms.

The first movie was Undefeated. It won the best documentary oscar last year. It was good. I like movies (and books) where the characters work hard and achieve results, even if they don't win in the end. These movies make me want to work hard too. I want to be disciplined. Some people would probably say that I am disciplined but I want to be more disciplined. I have wanted this for a very long time. This story was very heartening. The coach of the football team was a good man. He made me think about coaching basketball again. I saw how much of an impact a coach can have on young people. The film began with a clip of the coach talking to the team. He told them a list of things that had gone wrong for him and said that it was a career's worth of misfortunes for most coaches. He then said that it had been the last two weeks for him. That scene was very true to this film as a whole. There was more drama in this documentary than in most fictional sports films. This movie is a less melodramatic Coach Carter (I like the melodrama in Coach Carter though). At the end I thought about how sport films are confined. The team either wins or it loses. Both of these possible endings has become over used. What is an original but still satisfying way to end a sports film? Other dramas have so many possibilities. This film was even more confined in that it was a documentary. It did well. It had a lot of heart. I enjoyed it.

I enjoyed the other movie more though. It was Sound Of My Voice. It was advertised as FILMMAKER PRESENT, but it wasn't any of the film makers of Sound Of My Voice. It was the filmmaker of the four minute film played beforehand. There was no point in him being there really. He said about five sentences that were unrevealing. I could write a pretty long, intellectual paragraph about it, comparing it to Prometheus, but it doesn't deserve it. The guy obviously had a good visual idea but then made the film with what I'm assuming was zero budget. As a result, the completely animated film didn't have good enough animation to pop. Oh well.
Sound Of My Voice was fantastic. I expected it to be good but it was better than that. It was a perfectly told story. It was post-modern but subtle. Everything happened for a reason. The tension never dropped (it wasn't constantly building either, which is a good thing). The characters and relationships were really real. The tone was maintained beautifully. The only thing I can see people complaining about is the end, but I loved the end. I reccomend this film very highly. It's the best film I've seen in a while. It kept giving me ideas for writing but I kept pushing them aside because I wanted to focus on the film. SOme of the ideas were good so I hope I can remember them. The last film that inspired me to write like that was Inception. Please don't let that put you off. While I wouldn't say that this is a betterr film than Inception I would say that it is better for some people. Probably better for the people who are likely to read this. The characters are so much stronger in this. I don't know how to end this paragraph

I bit my nails in both movies. I don't think that really has anything to do with the films but I haven't done it in a long time.