I used to want to be a famous rapper. FOr the last few years I haven't wanted to be famous. Feel like I'm beginning to want to be famous again. Maybe not famous but successful. Yeah successful. You know?? I want what I do to have significance in a lot of peoples lives. I want to inspire people. Also I want everyone to like me. Please like me everyone.

UNCENSORED THOUGHTS (cause James said it should be a regular thing):
The rap that I posted on everything is fantastic today is an example of how terrible at rapping I am. It is really bad.

That's the only uncensored thought I had.

I might try and do raps more often and just post them here. Make that a regular feature. I hope I do that.

[I am adding this bit in here so there are pictures to break things up] Today I tried to take a photo of me making a heart shape with my hands. It didn't workk

Today I watched Mulholland Drive with Caro. It was real good. I like how it uses various motifs to tell a [what's the word?] MULTIPLICITY!] of stories like a jigsaw puzzle that can be put together multiple ways making multiple pictures. The first ~2 hours (until we enter the blue box (which itself is maybe a metaphor for movies) show us one possible picture/story that can be put together but then we are given additional pieces/scenes which can be used to make new pictures/stories. Also I like how the movie is SUPER ominous, except when violent shit is going down, then it's just funny. Watching this made me want to read Blake Butler. We watched Eraserhead last week. Next week is Inland Empire. Getting our David Lynch awwwwwwwwwwwwwn. Maybe when she visits we could watch Twin Peaks together!

I was going to go for a run tonight but then I didn't. I did push ups for the first time in ages. I did ten then I went and started running a bath and my mum asked me what I was listening to and I told her I Don't Wanna Be Alone by Childish Gambino. She said 'That's a good name. It rhymes with Bambino'. Then I went to the kitchen and took my nighttime pill and checked the snack inventory and said to myself 'Brilliant, brilliant, everything is brilliant' (rebrand?). Then I went back to my room and did 8 more pressups. BUT I THINK IM GONNA GO SWIMMING TOMORROW SO EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY.

Read Worstward Ho today.

Now I'm snacking and listening to A Fistful Of Popcorn (a movie/tv podcast I listen to).

I've been slacking on my email game lately. I think it's partly because of this blog, they use the same muscles). Wanna get more into formspring. Hit me up: http://www.formspring.me/Jacksonieuwland

Last night I slept before midnight. This morning I woke up around 7. Seems REAL good. Wanna try get more into that. BUt I'm not gonna get to sleep before midnight tonight. Oh well