Caro took a bunch of photos of me on skype last night

I had a meeting with my case manager person today. The meeting was at eleven but I only left my house at eleven (I had got caught up on facebook) so I ran and it only took me 7 minutes to get there. Seems good. Also I had a real good run last night.

Meeting was good. Instead of trying to therapy/counsel me, it seems like she is try to teach me to do it myself. It felt like a class. She wrote stuff of a whiteboard. She gave me some 'worksheets' to fill out (theyre not really worksheets but I'm going with a school analogy (seems good for my 'rehabilitation' (lol) to be like school because then it will be easier to go back to school eventually (pretty soon really!))). One of the 'worksheets' is a weekly activity plan. It reminds me of having to write weekly training schedules and stuff for basketball.

Finally recorded me reading the second half of The No Hellos Diet. THe video is uploading now. I tried to do it the other day but my computer crashed. I can't remember if i Mentiioned that in that days blog post or not. Caro suggested I blog about what I'm reading and what it makes me think so here. While I was reading The No Hellos Diet I thought about: trying to speak loud enough, how long iit was taking, how many pages I had left, whether I had read certain scenes from the book in the previous video or not, stuffing up some of the words, having a sore throat, how many pages I had left, how cool a few of the sections were.

I'm still reading Nothing and You Are A LIttle Bit Happier Than I Am. Possibley finishing the tao tonight. Was thinking I might go to the library today but it doesnt look like I'llhave time. A Plague Of Wolves And Women by Riley Michael Parker arrived today but I don't know how soon I'll read that.

DAMN THIS IS A BORING ASS BLOG POST.

Have you ever considered snapping your thumb off? It seems really doable.

I'm eating dates. Enjoying it a lot. People seriously need to get more into dried fruit.

Just took the sheets of my bed and put them in the washing machine. Hi, marry me, I am a domestic god.

Leaning against my bed's headboard without a pillow for cushioning. Extremely uncomrtable. I don't recommend it guys.

Even without my sheets my bed still has a shitload of stuff on it: books, clothes, bowl, dates, bottle, scanner, papers.

An interview I did is up at HTMLGiant. Proud of that. I wouldnt be writing this blog if it wasnt for that site. Would love to be a real contributor. I have some ideas for articles. LOL dream a little smaller amirite?

After my meeting today the part of my jeans at the back of my knees was sweaty. EW!

THere are a lot of people on gmail chat right now. I wonder if any of them have noticed this as well. I wonder if we're all just sitting not chatting to anyone, thinking about how amny people are online of gmail chat right now.

Just ate a date and thought 'date me'

It seems like it's impossible to be well read. There are too many different spheres of knowledge/literature. If you read everything your head would swell up all malformed and disgusting and brains would start leaking out of your ears and you'd be panicking, scooping them up and stuffing them into your mouth.

THERE'S NO REASON NOT TO BE NICE

I used to want to be a famous rapper. FOr the last few years I haven't wanted to be famous. Feel like I'm beginning to want to be famous again. Maybe not famous but successful. Yeah successful. You know?? I want what I do to have significance in a lot of peoples lives. I want to inspire people. Also I want everyone to like me. Please like me everyone.

UNCENSORED THOUGHTS (cause James said it should be a regular thing):
The rap that I posted on everything is fantastic today is an example of how terrible at rapping I am. It is really bad.

That's the only uncensored thought I had.

I might try and do raps more often and just post them here. Make that a regular feature. I hope I do that.

[I am adding this bit in here so there are pictures to break things up] Today I tried to take a photo of me making a heart shape with my hands. It didn't workk

Today I watched Mulholland Drive with Caro. It was real good. I like how it uses various motifs to tell a [what's the word?] MULTIPLICITY!] of stories like a jigsaw puzzle that can be put together multiple ways making multiple pictures. The first ~2 hours (until we enter the blue box (which itself is maybe a metaphor for movies) show us one possible picture/story that can be put together but then we are given additional pieces/scenes which can be used to make new pictures/stories. Also I like how the movie is SUPER ominous, except when violent shit is going down, then it's just funny. Watching this made me want to read Blake Butler. We watched Eraserhead last week. Next week is Inland Empire. Getting our David Lynch awwwwwwwwwwwwwn. Maybe when she visits we could watch Twin Peaks together!

I was going to go for a run tonight but then I didn't. I did push ups for the first time in ages. I did ten then I went and started running a bath and my mum asked me what I was listening to and I told her I Don't Wanna Be Alone by Childish Gambino. She said 'That's a good name. It rhymes with Bambino'. Then I went to the kitchen and took my nighttime pill and checked the snack inventory and said to myself 'Brilliant, brilliant, everything is brilliant' (rebrand?). Then I went back to my room and did 8 more pressups. BUT I THINK IM GONNA GO SWIMMING TOMORROW SO EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY.

Read Worstward Ho today.

Now I'm snacking and listening to A Fistful Of Popcorn (a movie/tv podcast I listen to).

I've been slacking on my email game lately. I think it's partly because of this blog, they use the same muscles). Wanna get more into formspring. Hit me up: http://www.formspring.me/Jacksonieuwland

Last night I slept before midnight. This morning I woke up around 7. Seems REAL good. Wanna try get more into that. BUt I'm not gonna get to sleep before midnight tonight. Oh well