All Day I Thought About Blogging

I walked to the pharmacy to pick up my meds. I started coming up with a poem:

I am writing a log poem


It is a log of all the logs I see.
I went to the toilet and drop a long log.
That is the first entry.
Are trunks logs?
If they are I saw an elephant.
I was grey and brown and elegant.
It was also in a forest

All the people at the pharmacy know my name and what meds I'm on. They say Hi Tom and I dont have to tell them what i need. I just say Hi and Thanks and Have a nice day. I don't know their names or anything about them.

I walked down the hill into town. I thought about how I would like it if me and all my internet friends worked in the same office building and we were paid to go on facebook and gmail and tumblr and twitter and blogs. And sometimes someone would get up and walk over to your desk and say do you want to collaborate on an ebook called Hi Bro? And we could go out to lunch together.

A woman said On your left. I stepped aside and she ran past me extremely slowly. There were two other women running behind me but they were going so slowly that the distance between us could be maintained by me walking at normal speed.

I got lunch at the fish and chip shop. The people there don't know my name or my order even though I get the same thing everytime. I know that they recognise me. By now they should know what to make as soon as I walk in (same thing at Satay Kingdom). I ate a scoop of chips and two vege rolls and drank a bottle of L&P. For some reason I remembered the time when I was real little and my mum was sick and she wanted chocolate and I said I would buy her some so i went to my room to get my secret stash of coins but my stash was gone! So instead of a big block of chocolate I got my mum a really little bar of chocolate and I was really sad and cried. Remembering that made me sadder than expected, maybe because my stash of coins never turned up and I have held that sadness within me from the on. I had like $25 in coins.

I also thought about my old friend Andrew and how we're not friends anymore and its because I changed probably.

I went to Mighty Mighty for Wellington Zinefest. It was the second time I have ever been into Mighty Mighty. It was very crowded and hot and I was nervous. I walked around a bit, looking at stuff. I tried to emanate an arua of Don't start a conversation with me (because I was nervous/anxious not because I don't like people). I built up the courage to buy some things and then it got easier. I had some very small conversations. A girl said I should submit to her zine. It was still really hot though. Some of my sweat dripped on a zine.

I went to the library and finished reading You Are A Little Bit Happier Than I Am. I enoyed it. I think I liked the first half more than the second. Tao seems to have changed a lot since then.

I also got this from the library. Me and Caro are going to watch it on Tuesday/Monday. I think I'll watch the special features before then hehe.



I am going to a potluck dinner tonight. Its celebrating the end of exams and my friend Ellard's 22nd birthday. Her name is Ellard CLout. thats a cool name. My dad is going to help me make a couscous salad to bring to it now.

Bye <3

Caro took a bunch of photos of me on skype last night

I had a meeting with my case manager person today. The meeting was at eleven but I only left my house at eleven (I had got caught up on facebook) so I ran and it only took me 7 minutes to get there. Seems good. Also I had a real good run last night.

Meeting was good. Instead of trying to therapy/counsel me, it seems like she is try to teach me to do it myself. It felt like a class. She wrote stuff of a whiteboard. She gave me some 'worksheets' to fill out (theyre not really worksheets but I'm going with a school analogy (seems good for my 'rehabilitation' (lol) to be like school because then it will be easier to go back to school eventually (pretty soon really!))). One of the 'worksheets' is a weekly activity plan. It reminds me of having to write weekly training schedules and stuff for basketball.

Finally recorded me reading the second half of The No Hellos Diet. THe video is uploading now. I tried to do it the other day but my computer crashed. I can't remember if i Mentiioned that in that days blog post or not. Caro suggested I blog about what I'm reading and what it makes me think so here. While I was reading The No Hellos Diet I thought about: trying to speak loud enough, how long iit was taking, how many pages I had left, whether I had read certain scenes from the book in the previous video or not, stuffing up some of the words, having a sore throat, how many pages I had left, how cool a few of the sections were.

I'm still reading Nothing and You Are A LIttle Bit Happier Than I Am. Possibley finishing the tao tonight. Was thinking I might go to the library today but it doesnt look like I'llhave time. A Plague Of Wolves And Women by Riley Michael Parker arrived today but I don't know how soon I'll read that.

DAMN THIS IS A BORING ASS BLOG POST.

Have you ever considered snapping your thumb off? It seems really doable.

I'm eating dates. Enjoying it a lot. People seriously need to get more into dried fruit.

Just took the sheets of my bed and put them in the washing machine. Hi, marry me, I am a domestic god.

Leaning against my bed's headboard without a pillow for cushioning. Extremely uncomrtable. I don't recommend it guys.

Even without my sheets my bed still has a shitload of stuff on it: books, clothes, bowl, dates, bottle, scanner, papers.

An interview I did is up at HTMLGiant. Proud of that. I wouldnt be writing this blog if it wasnt for that site. Would love to be a real contributor. I have some ideas for articles. LOL dream a little smaller amirite?

After my meeting today the part of my jeans at the back of my knees was sweaty. EW!

THere are a lot of people on gmail chat right now. I wonder if any of them have noticed this as well. I wonder if we're all just sitting not chatting to anyone, thinking about how amny people are online of gmail chat right now.

Just ate a date and thought 'date me'

It seems like it's impossible to be well read. There are too many different spheres of knowledge/literature. If you read everything your head would swell up all malformed and disgusting and brains would start leaking out of your ears and you'd be panicking, scooping them up and stuffing them into your mouth.

THERE'S NO REASON NOT TO BE NICE

I went for a run

I started out feeling really good. THought I was gonna run better than I have in a while. But I quickly lost my breath so that suckked. But on the positive side my legs felt strong the whole time, it was just my aerobic fitness that needs work. In the second half of the run i got into an okay rhythm. I got a second wind on the final uphill stertch and ended up finishing well. Had been planning on running again tomorrow night but I'm going to a party instead. Not sure how I feel about that.

After the run I did a poo and my ass was sweaty on the toilet seat. Gutted for the next person who sits there. I think I'm gonna trim my pubes for the ~3rd time ever soon because I've got a pimple or something down there and I think shorter hair might be better for it.

this is what im wearing for pyjamas tonight. My mum saw me wearing these underwear and said they looked too tight. These and my pink underwear are my favourite underwear at the moment. I've put this pic on me in the pink undies online before but here it is again:

GUYs I want to wake up early and be productive tomorrow but it's already 11:56pm and I still have so much to do today! FUCK. If only I hadn't slept in this morning. ALthough it's probably good that I did. I was really tired last night. Usually when I sleep in I feel bad due to not being productive but this morning I was okay with it. I HAVEN'T EVEN POSTED ON EVERYTHING IS FANTASTIC YET.

I'm supposed to be writing 150 words a dayt on my novel thing but I haven;t done any the last two days so that means I have to do 450 tomorrow. Gonna go to the fish and chip shop for lunch tomorrow but I'm not gonna get fish because I don't eat meat. Gonna have two vege rolls instead. The vege rolls are FUCK WHAT ARE THEY CALLED AGAIN? oh yeah Spring Rolls but the spring rolls at the fish and chip shop have meat in them so they also have Vege Rolls on the menu which are actually vegetarian spring rools.

I had my first meeting with my new case manager (i don't think thats her official title but thats basically what it is) today. She was young and seemed nice. She likes Brett Easton Ellis and she used the word fantastic.

it's 12:07am

Goodmorning