Before founding the Wu-Tang Clan the Rza took long walks around NYC planning everything out

I just reread the second half of The Romantic while walking back and forth on a sheltered pathway near Wellington Central Library because it was raining. I also reread the first few poems of During My Nervous Breakdown I Want To Have A Biographer Present. I almost never watch new tv shows anymore, I just rewatch the ones I already have downloaded. Now I am rereading poetry books. Soon I will not do anything that I haven't done before. My life will be art because repetition.

I just drank a hot chocolate that my mum made for me. Thanks mum.

Now I'm watching Catfish. I think I know the 'punchline' but I watching it because I think I'll probably relate to it and I'm curious how catfish comes into it and it will distract me from thinking about myself. So far its trying to be clever. Its okay though. I'm eating microwave popcorn. I read cocaine on the package but it actually only said cocine, whatever that means. It's light butter flavour. I prefer salted flavour, which im pretty sure has has some butter stuff in it anyway, but sometimes the supermarket doesn't have it. The light butter flavour often gets a bit burnt.

I need to stop neglecting writing posts for antipobros.
I need to make some zines.

Sorry if this is a really boring blog post but this is a secret blog so it doesn't matter.

I finished my popcorn. I should have bought some nutella. actually I shouldn't have but I feel like eating nutella now. actually i should not use the word should. should should should should should should should should should should should should should should should should should should should should should should should should (I didn't use copy paste for any of those shoulds

All Day I Thought About Blogging

I walked to the pharmacy to pick up my meds. I started coming up with a poem:

I am writing a log poem


It is a log of all the logs I see.
I went to the toilet and drop a long log.
That is the first entry.
Are trunks logs?
If they are I saw an elephant.
I was grey and brown and elegant.
It was also in a forest

All the people at the pharmacy know my name and what meds I'm on. They say Hi Tom and I dont have to tell them what i need. I just say Hi and Thanks and Have a nice day. I don't know their names or anything about them.

I walked down the hill into town. I thought about how I would like it if me and all my internet friends worked in the same office building and we were paid to go on facebook and gmail and tumblr and twitter and blogs. And sometimes someone would get up and walk over to your desk and say do you want to collaborate on an ebook called Hi Bro? And we could go out to lunch together.

A woman said On your left. I stepped aside and she ran past me extremely slowly. There were two other women running behind me but they were going so slowly that the distance between us could be maintained by me walking at normal speed.

I got lunch at the fish and chip shop. The people there don't know my name or my order even though I get the same thing everytime. I know that they recognise me. By now they should know what to make as soon as I walk in (same thing at Satay Kingdom). I ate a scoop of chips and two vege rolls and drank a bottle of L&P. For some reason I remembered the time when I was real little and my mum was sick and she wanted chocolate and I said I would buy her some so i went to my room to get my secret stash of coins but my stash was gone! So instead of a big block of chocolate I got my mum a really little bar of chocolate and I was really sad and cried. Remembering that made me sadder than expected, maybe because my stash of coins never turned up and I have held that sadness within me from the on. I had like $25 in coins.

I also thought about my old friend Andrew and how we're not friends anymore and its because I changed probably.

I went to Mighty Mighty for Wellington Zinefest. It was the second time I have ever been into Mighty Mighty. It was very crowded and hot and I was nervous. I walked around a bit, looking at stuff. I tried to emanate an arua of Don't start a conversation with me (because I was nervous/anxious not because I don't like people). I built up the courage to buy some things and then it got easier. I had some very small conversations. A girl said I should submit to her zine. It was still really hot though. Some of my sweat dripped on a zine.

I went to the library and finished reading You Are A Little Bit Happier Than I Am. I enoyed it. I think I liked the first half more than the second. Tao seems to have changed a lot since then.

I also got this from the library. Me and Caro are going to watch it on Tuesday/Monday. I think I'll watch the special features before then hehe.



I am going to a potluck dinner tonight. Its celebrating the end of exams and my friend Ellard's 22nd birthday. Her name is Ellard CLout. thats a cool name. My dad is going to help me make a couscous salad to bring to it now.

Bye <3