Before founding the Wu-Tang Clan the Rza took long walks around NYC planning everything out

I just reread the second half of The Romantic while walking back and forth on a sheltered pathway near Wellington Central Library because it was raining. I also reread the first few poems of During My Nervous Breakdown I Want To Have A Biographer Present. I almost never watch new tv shows anymore, I just rewatch the ones I already have downloaded. Now I am rereading poetry books. Soon I will not do anything that I haven't done before. My life will be art because repetition.

I just drank a hot chocolate that my mum made for me. Thanks mum.

Now I'm watching Catfish. I think I know the 'punchline' but I watching it because I think I'll probably relate to it and I'm curious how catfish comes into it and it will distract me from thinking about myself. So far its trying to be clever. Its okay though. I'm eating microwave popcorn. I read cocaine on the package but it actually only said cocine, whatever that means. It's light butter flavour. I prefer salted flavour, which im pretty sure has has some butter stuff in it anyway, but sometimes the supermarket doesn't have it. The light butter flavour often gets a bit burnt.

I need to stop neglecting writing posts for antipobros.
I need to make some zines.

Sorry if this is a really boring blog post but this is a secret blog so it doesn't matter.

I finished my popcorn. I should have bought some nutella. actually I shouldn't have but I feel like eating nutella now. actually i should not use the word should. should should should should should should should should should should should should should should should should should should should should should should should should (I didn't use copy paste for any of those shoulds

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I'm watching I'm Still Here. It's not that good. Like the premise is cool but they haven't really gone anywhere with it yet. I ate some popcorn. That was the best part. Popcorn is one of my fav foods. Corn is so underrated. Corny is an insult. But think of all the good things that come from corn: popcorn, cornchips, cornflakes, corn on the cob, cream corn, and corn syrup is in heaps of yum things.

I finished reading Varieties Of Disturbances. I got out that Beckett book yesterday because it was mentioned in this book. I'm also reading Nothing by Blake Butler at the moment. It's so good. Blake just keeps getting better. I can feel it effecting me, making me write more. I've also been having trouble getting to sleep on time while reading it. Maybe that is another effect. It is making me want to try reading Infinite Jest again. It is making it seem more doable, more possible. My fear of the huge is shrinking.

Having a personal blog is like writing emails except everyone can see it. Not everyone will see it though, especially since this is a secret blog. I've only written 150 words on the novel so far today. Need to go hard tomorrow morning I guess. I hope I can write a good novel. I wonder if anyone is excited about the prospect of this novel. I think I am doing some creative things in it. Things that I haven't seen before at least. I'm also doing things that are way similar to other people's writing. I still have a long way to go with it anyway. Ideas are no use unless they're enacted right? Idk. Getting philosophical with it lol.

Caro took this photo of me secretly and just sent it to me today.

Updates on my personal hygiene:

Today I washed my hair and trimmed my nails.

I also brushed my teeth in the morning.

I will brush them again after writing this.

I need to shave my face.

The movie is almost finished the final twenty minutes are pretty good. He actually becomes an okay Lil B-esque rapper. I need to spend some time writing raps soon