lazy butt blogger

Caro cam:

I need new boxers. Their elastic has become inelastic. Today as I walked to the library my boxers slid down until the wear around my knees. They would have slid further but they were held up by the crotch of my sweatpants. Also the but on my sweatpants is almost worn through. I am lying in bed in my sweatpants sweating.

Today I drank three bottles of powerade: Blue, Red, and Yellow. There is a deal at fix where it's cheaper to buy three bottles. My mouth has had a weird dry texture the last few days.

Also today I slept through my appointment with my case manager. I am shirking my responsibilities. Election tomorrow. I haven't read up on the parties' policies. I imagined walking into the voting booth and shooting myself in the head.

I reread sometimes my heart pushes my ribs today. That book is short. I didn't enjoy it as much as the other books I've been rereading. I haven't been keeping my goodreads up to date. Caro read Shoplifting From American Apparel today. She didn't like it. I did. What does this mean?

I am now watching my 15th episode of The Office for today. The theme song is comforting.

Recently I have been spouting cliches in conversation because I can't think

I need to fucking shave.

Yo

I'm watching I'm Still Here. It's not that good. Like the premise is cool but they haven't really gone anywhere with it yet. I ate some popcorn. That was the best part. Popcorn is one of my fav foods. Corn is so underrated. Corny is an insult. But think of all the good things that come from corn: popcorn, cornchips, cornflakes, corn on the cob, cream corn, and corn syrup is in heaps of yum things.

I finished reading Varieties Of Disturbances. I got out that Beckett book yesterday because it was mentioned in this book. I'm also reading Nothing by Blake Butler at the moment. It's so good. Blake just keeps getting better. I can feel it effecting me, making me write more. I've also been having trouble getting to sleep on time while reading it. Maybe that is another effect. It is making me want to try reading Infinite Jest again. It is making it seem more doable, more possible. My fear of the huge is shrinking.

Having a personal blog is like writing emails except everyone can see it. Not everyone will see it though, especially since this is a secret blog. I've only written 150 words on the novel so far today. Need to go hard tomorrow morning I guess. I hope I can write a good novel. I wonder if anyone is excited about the prospect of this novel. I think I am doing some creative things in it. Things that I haven't seen before at least. I'm also doing things that are way similar to other people's writing. I still have a long way to go with it anyway. Ideas are no use unless they're enacted right? Idk. Getting philosophical with it lol.

Caro took this photo of me secretly and just sent it to me today.

Updates on my personal hygiene:

Today I washed my hair and trimmed my nails.

I also brushed my teeth in the morning.

I will brush them again after writing this.

I need to shave my face.

The movie is almost finished the final twenty minutes are pretty good. He actually becomes an okay Lil B-esque rapper. I need to spend some time writing raps soon