I swam

UNCENSORED THOUGHTS:
I have gooten soft.

That iss the official end of the uncensored thoughts section for today but by cleverly placing it at the top of this post everything else is still under the heading UNCENSORED THOUGHTS.

When I put my togs on today they were snugger than they have been in the past. They always used to be too loose. I swam and really felt it in my arms. Allso my hair is longer now than it was last year when I swam. I guess I need to get a simming cap even though I don't like them. I want to make my muscles hard again like they used to be. I want to be a hard man (just kidding guys I just want my muscles to be stronger (then I'll be able to lift people in hugs more easily!)). Gotta do some pushups soon

I also went to my Dad's school and helped a bit. It was different from i expected. I feel good about it though. I helped kids with writing a story. I had to keep stopping them from talking and make them keep writing. I feel like I contributed to society, which is good because I often worry about that. Gonna go back next week.

Fuck what else?

this

I had a nice gchat with ben today. I enjoyed it ben.

Haven't been writing enough. Gotta get onto that tomorrow.

I'm sleepy. Wanna do some emails but I think I'm too sleepy. Was one of the seven dwarves called Sleepy (I alsmost wrote bears instrad of dwarves).

I miss talking to Jim Rowley and Jonny Lily.

This blog post is lame. Need to step my game up. I'm feeling vaguely lonely right now. I think it's cause I'm tired. Crispin is on gchat and I kind of feel like chatting him but I don't have anything to say.

I want to read A Million Bears and During My Nervous Breakdown I Want to Have a Biographer Present again. I wish I had a fucking book but actually I don't want to rush it. All in good time Jackson, all in good time. It used to be that my real name was tom and jackson was a psuedonym. I don't know whcich is which anymore LOL. INDENTITY CRISIS!

I want some chocolate.

I just took a break from writing this and emailed Ghya. She is cool. I wish there were more of here poems out there. I like her ebook. Here it is: http://avnh.blogspot.com/

I also started chatting Crispin. I made a pun of his name. Easy peasy.

Just fiunished listening to a podcast about Alcatraz. My friend Lani went there.

THE END

ps: crispin showed me this and it has inspired me to rap mroe:

Yo

I'm watching I'm Still Here. It's not that good. Like the premise is cool but they haven't really gone anywhere with it yet. I ate some popcorn. That was the best part. Popcorn is one of my fav foods. Corn is so underrated. Corny is an insult. But think of all the good things that come from corn: popcorn, cornchips, cornflakes, corn on the cob, cream corn, and corn syrup is in heaps of yum things.

I finished reading Varieties Of Disturbances. I got out that Beckett book yesterday because it was mentioned in this book. I'm also reading Nothing by Blake Butler at the moment. It's so good. Blake just keeps getting better. I can feel it effecting me, making me write more. I've also been having trouble getting to sleep on time while reading it. Maybe that is another effect. It is making me want to try reading Infinite Jest again. It is making it seem more doable, more possible. My fear of the huge is shrinking.

Having a personal blog is like writing emails except everyone can see it. Not everyone will see it though, especially since this is a secret blog. I've only written 150 words on the novel so far today. Need to go hard tomorrow morning I guess. I hope I can write a good novel. I wonder if anyone is excited about the prospect of this novel. I think I am doing some creative things in it. Things that I haven't seen before at least. I'm also doing things that are way similar to other people's writing. I still have a long way to go with it anyway. Ideas are no use unless they're enacted right? Idk. Getting philosophical with it lol.

Caro took this photo of me secretly and just sent it to me today.

Updates on my personal hygiene:

Today I washed my hair and trimmed my nails.

I also brushed my teeth in the morning.

I will brush them again after writing this.

I need to shave my face.

The movie is almost finished the final twenty minutes are pretty good. He actually becomes an okay Lil B-esque rapper. I need to spend some time writing raps soon