I am at my Grandma's house in Hamilton.
I have learnt that she reads this blog even though this blog is supposed to be a secret.
Hi Glennis!
I am eating chocolate biscuits that are past their best before date.
Swag.
Trying to read Infinite Jest when you're tired is probably not a good idea.
Status updates I plan on using in the foreseeable future:
brb, having sex
brb, reading infinite jest
If you're in Hamilton check out Browsers. Sweet ass econd hand bookstore. Bought these three and left heaps of good stuff there for you
If you're in Hastings check out my aunt Andrea du Chatenier's retrospective exhibition. It's fantastic. I know I'm biased but she is one of my fav artiest. THere is a photo of me there. The website for the exhibition says "Some content may offend". At least google her or something. oidk
Is it weird that my writing makes such free use of repetition and yet I dislike recounting the same anecdote multiple times (to multiple people)? Is my writing confessional?
If you snooze you lose so it's lose your mind time
That iss the official end of the uncensored thoughts section for today but by cleverly placing it at the top of this post everything else is still under the heading UNCENSORED THOUGHTS.
When I put my togs on today they were snugger than they have been in the past. They always used to be too loose. I swam and really felt it in my arms. Allso my hair is longer now than it was last year when I swam. I guess I need to get a simming cap even though I don't like them. I want to make my muscles hard again like they used to be. I want to be a hard man (just kidding guys I just want my muscles to be stronger (then I'll be able to lift people in hugs more easily!)). Gotta do some pushups soon
I also went to my Dad's school and helped a bit. It was different from i expected. I feel good about it though. I helped kids with writing a story. I had to keep stopping them from talking and make them keep writing. I feel like I contributed to society, which is good because I often worry about that. Gonna go back next week.
Fuck what else?
this
I had a nice gchat with ben today. I enjoyed it ben.
Haven't been writing enough. Gotta get onto that tomorrow.
I'm sleepy. Wanna do some emails but I think I'm too sleepy. Was one of the seven dwarves called Sleepy (I alsmost wrote bears instrad of dwarves).
I miss talking to Jim Rowley and Jonny Lily.
This blog post is lame. Need to step my game up. I'm feeling vaguely lonely right now. I think it's cause I'm tired. Crispin is on gchat and I kind of feel like chatting him but I don't have anything to say.
I want to read A Million Bears and During My Nervous Breakdown I Want to Have a Biographer Present again. I wish I had a fucking book but actually I don't want to rush it. All in good time Jackson, all in good time. It used to be that my real name was tom and jackson was a psuedonym. I don't know whcich is which anymore LOL. INDENTITY CRISIS!
I want some chocolate.
I just took a break from writing this and emailed Ghya. She is cool. I wish there were more of here poems out there. I like her ebook. Here it is: http://avnh.blogspot.com/
I also started chatting Crispin. I made a pun of his name. Easy peasy.
Just fiunished listening to a podcast about Alcatraz. My friend Lani went there.
THE END
ps: crispin showed me this and it has inspired me to rap mroe:
I've been worrying about how this blog has been too depressed. I have been trying not to let concerns of quality or how I come across alter what I post here. I have been extremely depressed the last three or so days. (FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DONT KNOW I HAVE CLINICAL DEPRESSION AND A SOCIAL ANXIETY DISORDER). It will pass and then the mood of this blog will balance out and all will be right with the world.
I've basically spent the last three days in bed. I need a friend to come over and make me do things with them. Last year when I was too scared to leave my flat. My friend Nicole would come over and make me go and play netball with her. That was very helpful.
Caro eventually got me to go for a walk today. I just got back. Megan Boyle's book arrived today. I brought it on my walk. I read it while I walked down Taranaki street. I think it will help me with reading (LATELY ALL IVE WANTED TO DO IS READ AND WRITE BUT I HAVENT BEEN ABLLE TO FOCUS ENOUGH TO DO EITHER). I have been feeling a muu muu vibe recently. A drop of water fell onto the boook as I was walking. I dried it off. I walked to Fix and bought a blue powerade and a big bag of m&ms. I carried them to a bench near the library and read as I ate and drank. I walked in a loop back to the bottom of Taranaki street. The vertical bungee that had been set up on taranaki street for years is gone now. They took it dsown this week. I think that's sad.
Vertical is actually a bad name for it because all bungees are vertical.
You know how Zachary German's book is callled Eat WHen You Feel Sad? Well I actually do that. I pump myself full of sugar.
In the package with Megans book were some heart stickers. I'm curious what other people got in their packages.
I was gonna write about other stuff but I can't remember.
Oh yeah about how I've been feeling like a failure. I was hoping to break the guiness world record for longest hug with caro but they just sent me the guidelines and it seems too hard. Also I need to edit some things for publication but I look at them on the screen and just seize up. Also I was meant to do this run tomorrow but I dont know if I am anymore. I was supposed to go to a check in thing for it today but I didnt go. Been stuggling to make stuff for everything is fantastic. Have been posting things there that i wanted to save for other things. Need to make zines.
I was gonna write about other stuff but I can't remember
Vertical is actually a bad name for it because all bungees are vertical.
