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Did you know that it's actually Jackson's younger sister writing this blog? I bet you didn't.

I don't write everything that happens to me in this blog. It seems like that would be consoring myself. I am giving you a limited yet honest view of my life or somethiing. Usually I don't care about censoring myself. I do it to improve the ratio of quality to bullshit. But on this blog I am attempting not to censor myself.

Last night I sllept for two hours. Then I stood and sat in the cold for two hours. Then I ran 8km.

 


Today I returned all of my library books but one. It was difficult to fit them all into my backpack. New rule: no more than two books issued from the library at once.

I'm beginning to think that Blake Butler and Tao Lin are the same person.

I think about these posts before I write them but I always forget something.

UNCENSORED THOUGHTS:
I wish me and Ben Brooks had a caring email correspondence.
I wish me and James Duncan still chatted regularly.
Does anyone want to publish a book by me? Will you agree to publish it sight unseen? Give me monthly deadlines like I need the first draft of this stroy by next monday.

There were lots of girls dressed as fairies. I like fairies.

I bought 10 mini donuts fresh from the deepfrier for $5. I went to a mcdonalds that i always expect/hope to be empty but is always busy. Today I discovered there is an unstrairs. I bought a larger choc sunday and a large chips. I wanted to get a frozen l&p too but they were out or something. I should have bought a drink because I need to stay hydrated.

I washed my head (at first i accidently wrote shaved). My hair feels nice. I have a headache.

My mum bought this shirt from a garage sale many many many years ago. I think i was still in primary school. I still like it








I like how Megan Boyle doesn't end her paragraphs with full stops.

Caro has turned her blog into a fashion blog. She is way better than Bebe Zeva.

I don't have any credit on my cellphone

Feeling sorry for myself DONT WASTE YOUR TIME READING THIS LOL

I've been worrying about how this blog has been too depressed. I have been trying not to let concerns of quality or how I come across alter what I post here. I have been extremely depressed the last three or so days. (FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DONT KNOW I HAVE CLINICAL DEPRESSION AND A SOCIAL ANXIETY DISORDER). It will pass and then the mood of this blog will balance out and all will be right with the world.

I've basically spent the last three days in bed. I need a friend to come over and make me do things with them. Last year when I was too scared to leave my flat. My friend Nicole would come over and make me go and play netball with her. That was very helpful.

Caro eventually got me to go for a walk today. I just got back. Megan Boyle's book arrived today. I brought it on my walk. I read it while I walked down Taranaki street. I think it will help me with reading (LATELY ALL IVE WANTED TO DO IS READ AND WRITE BUT I HAVENT BEEN ABLLE TO FOCUS ENOUGH TO DO EITHER). I have been feeling a muu muu vibe recently. A drop of water fell onto the boook as I was walking. I dried it off. I walked to Fix and bought a blue powerade and a big bag of m&ms. I carried them to a bench near the library and read as I ate and drank. I walked in a loop back to the bottom of Taranaki street. The vertical bungee that had been set up on taranaki street for years is gone now. They took it dsown this week. I think that's sad.

Vertical is actually a bad name for it because all bungees are vertical.

You know how Zachary German's book is callled Eat WHen You Feel Sad? Well I actually do that. I pump myself full of sugar.

In the package with Megans book were some heart stickers. I'm curious what other people got in their packages.

I was gonna write about other stuff but I can't remember.
Oh yeah about how I've been feeling like a failure. I was hoping to break the guiness world record for longest hug with caro but they just sent me the guidelines and it seems too hard. Also I need to edit some things for publication but I look at them on the screen and just seize up. Also I was meant to do this run tomorrow but I dont know if I am anymore. I was supposed to go to a check in thing for it today but I didnt go. Been stuggling to make stuff for everything is fantastic. Have been posting things there that i wanted to save for other things. Need to make zines.

I was gonna write about other stuff but I can't remember